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Gender: M
Age: 28
State: Indiana
Experience...
SOMEONE, KILL ME AT ONCE. PLEASE [458]
Gender: M
Age: 28
Experience...
someone, kill me please [457]
Gender: F
Age: 13
State: NC
Country: USA
Experience...
I first started having depression last year in 6th grade. I don`t have a boyfriend and it`s terrible!! I hate life so much!!!!!!!! [425]
Gender: F
Age: 40
State: Tennessee
Country: United States
Experience...
Today I am experiencing some depression and low points of life. I know that I need to pray more and keep myself busy enough to keep my mind occupied with positive thoghts and actions. I have alot on my mind such as my son going through being rebellious and feeling that by him being 18 yrs. old that he knows everything and don`t have to listen to what parents have to tell him. We just went throught three family members death
and they were my oldest brother, my daddy and my aunt; and it is very difficult to deal with these losses and take on everyday life in order to maintain your sanity. It`s hard to fill in this empty feelings I get off and on but I have been trying to get back in the routine of praying and leaving it all in God`s hands ands know that he will make the difference for me. God is very dependable and never wrong I know but rigth about now he knows exactly what`s going on with me and with my family life so there is only one answer to it all I need to be patient and just wait and depend on God to make it allright. I am in need of all the prayers and comfort Ican possibly get. My heart, mind and soul are a little weak and full of pain. I am grateful for my family and being a live, healthy because I know there`s more to life than what I am experiencing. If your reading this please know that I love to be there for others and help lift their spirits but isn`t that quite funny I am in need of some inspiration.
GOD"S WORKING ON ME AS I SPEAK AND WRITE THESE WODS FROM MY HEART [424]
Gender: M
Age: 27
Experience...
I don`t know who to talk to. I`m so tired of living. I want to tell this to my friends, but I don`t know to whom I should talk. [349]
Gender: F
Age: 17
State: California
Country: USA
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I don`t know what to do and if there`s anyone out there that can help I`d greatly appreciate it. I was diagnosed with depression about three years ago, from our family doctor. And every day I feel like if if i`m trapt i tired moving to a different country to see if it was the enviroment, but it just got worse when i came back...
-i lost two of my bff
-my parents and i argue more
-i have no self motivation
and just a whole lotta things. My doctor has tried telling my parents that i need medicine but my folks refuse to pay attention.
I`ve tried telling my teachers but my parents never pay attention.
I cry every night and it just gets from bad to worse!
Can someone help!? [257]
Gender: M
Age: 27
State: Indiana
Country: USA
Experience...
I feel powerless. I might have alcohol problem. I drank too much yesterday. but I just had to. I`m tired. I want to puke. I just don`t see the light in life. I was drunk last night. I`m down in a hole. really dark and long tunnel alone. it`s going, i just don`t know where. no one wants you when you are down and out. i`m there. there`s gotta be something out there. something`s gotta turn out right. there`s gotta be a light out there. help [250]
Gender: M
Age: 52
Country: usa
Experience...
Have herpes for too long. My life is ruined, and I feel dead inside. Can`t sleep, no interest in anything. Countaing the days till I am gone.This is no life. [227]
Gender: F
Age: 50
State: ontario
Country: canada
Experience...
some years ago i found out that my spouse of 24 years had been cheating on me. he was having intimate encounters with strippers and massage parlour women. he contracted herpes. he then gave it to me. i had this infection for over 1 year before i knew about it. i was devastated upon learning that i had this disease. already having a compromised immune system, this infection was in a state of constant outbreak. i had many very bad lesions with blood posioning the result of one large lesion on my buttocks. i was treated for this outbreak, but left with depression so severe that suicide was a very real scenario for me. i tried personal therapy, couples counselling and religious guidance. i have 4 children by this person and having had a suicide in the family 20 or so years ago, i know that this is a very selfish thing to leave your family. still, the depression would not lift and i literally spent almost 2 years trying daily to get out of bed and on with life. i had and still have a mask i put on daily so as to allow my children a mother. the older children know of this terrible disease and what i have had to endure. i am ashamed of my spouse and have a hard time having any type of relationship with him. he has managed to turn his life around and now behaves as a loving husband and father. why, i ask, when i was young, pretty and head over heels in love with him, would he do this to us. i have no answers only his self centered answers. i no longer trust him. i feel trapped in this marriage and too ill to move on with my life. although i do not cry daily anymore, i still cry. i no longer look forward to the things i used to treasure and stay in the house alot. i no longer care about fashion and weight. i know i am still depressed, but the depression meds. caused me to have a weight gain of over 30 lbs. in one year. they were very hard to get off of and i would rather cry than go back on them. i don`t know what life will bring to me in the future, i just hope that it is not more pain. i can only say that if you are reading this and you feel the desire to cheat on your spouse, only know that you will hurt more people than you could ever imagine. also, like me, since i trusted a "close" friend, i am now a social pariah in our social circle and am avoided by most women i know and all their husbands. i have heard them whisper about me and snigger when i walk or drive by. 2 of my daughters have been called skank chicks by the children of 2 of my so called friends. moving is not an option at this time. remember, even with condoms, you can contract herpes. think about what you do. it really does affect more than you and eventually you will get caught. then the pain really starts. [213]
Gender: F
Age: 18
Country: Trinidad
Experience...
I sometimes feel confused about my life i am sometimes happy and then i am sometimes sad i am from a disfunctional home where no one seems to care for each other however i have been in a few relationsionships which never really turns out right i have slept with eight guys so far and i think that i may have and STD but i am afraid to go get tested because i dont think that i can handle hearing anything bad i do think that i am HIV positive i even heard that one of my ex boyfriend has the desease but i have not heard it from him but i often do a lot of research on this topic and i do have faith in God and i belive that he is the mighty healer and that he can heal anybody no matter what ther problem is so anyhow with problems no matter how big or how small put all of your faith in god all u got to do is belive [180]
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